helplessness

My whole family is not feeling well now. Four eyed frog and Mao Mao are recovering but not back to full form . Me, even worse, whining all day due to discomfort. Sometimes merlioning because ate too much at one go but I am so hungry just that my tummy can't keep the food down. *sigh* Butt merlionling has cleared dunno it is due to the constipating BRAT diet i am on or virus gone liao.

I feel the greatest victim in this whole episode got to be Big Ass Monster. Spoilt by GF, she can't decipher the clues i am giving her now that i am all haywired. And that add up to more frustration for her and me. *Sigh*

Well, she has also fallen sick. Not as bad as us but just weak and lerthargic. She's not saying anything but i can sense her helpless. She has realised that sometimes some battles have to be fought alone. The kind pple will ask after you and give u advice but there's a limit to how much advice they can give coz they have to live their own lives as well. For others, it is just , 'oh so u are sick' and they can get with their lives.

Big Ass Monster is again pondering abt life and the meaning of 'concern for others'. She feels helpless but wun ask others for help anymore. At times she is angry, coz she gives all out to help and certainly she ain't a fair weathered friend. I overhead Four Eyed Frog telling her to grow up and not have too high expectations on others -- dun expect others to be good to u just because u are good to them...

*sigh* these days are terrible. I just hope i get better soon because I know, once i recover, everyone would be back to their chirpy old selves.

*sigh* stupid damm bug, next time dun play with u anymore!